Change is coming, more than your tiny brain can imagine. My one satisfaction is knowing it will take you by surprise.

Resolutions, born of regret, nightly, always betrayed the next day.

He felt uncomfortable with any reminder of his objective existence.

At the time I was working for a local catering company. Two in the morning, five nights a week, sweating out last night’s alcohol in my polyester black and whites bussing dishes to back alley vans. I was on hold. To the world at large I was nobody. Soon enough I’d be nobody to myself.

Love of jargon, inversely proportional to love of truth.

The species had evolved a highly athletic technique of depositing, almost contemptuously, startlingly vivid droppings on vertical surfaces.

The sole perspective that I may have, that you may not have, in your privileged existence, is of time.

I like to keep myself unbusy.

the austere beauty of winter
the power of forgiveness
the market is not the economy
nina simone
the male or female gaze
blah blah etc etc

Assholishness somehow protected him from sadness.

He spent the entire two-hour mindfulness seminar contemplating the drink he would have after.

The way forward: Simply Be Exhausted.

When I mentioned that even in the absence of an actual box, you could draw a box on the floor and your cat would sit in it, she burst into tears. I can’t stand it she said. That’s too sad. I don’t think that’s sad at all, I said. I think it’s miraculous.

Canadian slasher movie with Leonard Cohen in a hockey mask.

20 years on, he didn’t know whether he should break down sobbing or smother her with a pillow. Probably both. He felt that way about most of his patients and it had worn him down. He was drinking too much, losing sleep and had developed a pronounced limp. Physician, destroy thyself.

What were thought to be diseases turned out to be the body’s unsuccessful attempts at healing.

51/49, 50% of the time.

A tiny miscalculation, compounded daily.