Fathers, sons, baseball: bad movies
What would you do if you could go back in time?
Probably die of embarrassment.
Reaching a late August level of nihilism when it’s only the first week in July.
When the anguish of youth meets the resignation of age.
Another evening of mutual assured destruction.
His audience had demonstrated a bottomless need for his bottomless need of their bottomless need.
We spent the next two decades holed up on the Cape in a drafty pink ranch house where I slammed out hundreds of short stories for low-paying sci-fi pulps. As it turns out, financial ruin and amphetamines make for a powerful muse. For a time we had a side line raising mushrooms in our basement, but it never paid off. That period finally ended when a collection of my writing marketed under the title The Unsound Mind of L. Rand Steiner met with modest success.
Listen—I never really made it out of there. The kids gave up on me long ago. Ann and I no longer speak. There’s a bad feeling lodged deep in my chest. The last time we spoke my son looked me in the eye and said well, Dad, it’s been weird. I didn’t know if he was saying goodbye, and was afraid to ask.
She said, everything is barely.